I am Katerina 

My father’s father was Jewish.

 I never met him.                   

He died during World War II when

 my dad was only two years old. 

He was killed in the Small Fortress 

in Terezin, the Nazi camp. 

That was all I knew about my grandfather.

There was a portrait of my grandfather, an oil painting. It hung in my dad’s study. 

Visitors would point at the painting and ask: "Who is that man?" 

My dad would answer, "He is my father." And after a while he would add, "He died in Terezin. He was Jewish."

For me the picture became synonymous with being a Jew. 

When I was about four years old, my father’s aunt-- my dead grandfather’s sister Manci from Hungary--, came to see us. 

"Do you know who this man is, Katka?" she asked when we were all gathered in front of the portrait.

"A Jew," I answered.

Her nose sharpened and the smile vanished from her face. She was angry. 

She turned to my dad and she said: "Is that how you’re bringing her up, Karol?" 

I was growing up in the time of Communism.

Everything was gray. People looked as if they were hidden in a mist. When I looked out at the street from the window in my dad’s study, people looked like mice hurrying home. 

That was where we could be ourselves, where we could talk about what we liked to: where we could live. In our homes. 

There we could feel relatively safe. 

Living in Communism was living under a lid. 

But I was a child and I didn’t understand most of the things my parents discussed. I liked going to school, and 

I believed what the teachers told us. 

My dad tried to lessen the influence of school on me by telling me what was true and what was only Communist propaganda. 

He could speak hours about historical events.

He has an enormous memory-- and also a big imagination. So I often learned more than was even known about a subject. 

My father became a salesman in a tobacco kiosk. I liked to be there with him. I was about six or seven, and sometimes he let me help him sell newspapers. There were a lot of magazines and newspapers. So many words to read!

Once a very nasty article about my dad’s friend Ludvik Vaculik, a writer, was published in a newspaper. My dad

brought scissors from home and cut the articles out of all the papers he was to sell. So he was fired.

He could only get work outside Prague. He used to spend one week in the woods and one week at home. In the woods he lived in a trailer, and when my sister Magdalena and I visited, we would go with him on his daily round checking something that had to do with water. 

He told us he was "measuring water." He would come to a place, look at a strange apparatus, and write down a number. Then we would go to some other place in the 

woods where he would do the same. After the checking was done he would sit in the trailer and write.

Then one night during the winter when we were in the mountains, staying with friends of my dad’s, he said "There’s something new happening in Prague."

Magdalena was already asleep. But I was twelve, so I was sitting at the table with the adults listening to their 

conversation.

"What is it?" Tom asked.

"A petition: an open letter to the government. We call it Charta 77," my dad answered.

"Do you think it could change anything?" asked Tom’s wife. My dad shrugged his shoulders. "I hope so." 

A few weeks later I was ill and stayed home from school. My mom and granny were at work. and I was alone with our dog. 

By noon I started to feel better and switched on the radio. I dressed and pretended I was a singer, using a skip-

rope for a microphone and cord. But the song was over, and an announcer started reading the news. I went to the 

kitchen to get something to eat, but froze in the middle of the hall.

"A group of unsuccessful writers have signed an open letter to the Government of the Czechoslovak Socialist Republic. The letter, which bears the title Charta 77, is an anti-socialist imperialist action by unsuccessful people who have nothing to offer our socialist system…."

I went back to my room, sat on the bed and shivered with cold. I could feel that this was a turning point. I knew 

too well that this moment would change our life. I don’t know why I was so sure. It must have been something in the announcer’s voice.

The Communists were angry.

I was a daughter of a forbidden author. 

Later, after Charta 77 I was a daughter of a dissident. 

And when my dad had to leave the country, I was a daughter of an emigrant. 

I was very proud to be a daughter of my father. 

And when I came to think about it, I was also a daughter of a man whose father had been killed in a concentration camp because he was Jewish. 

All these things gave me a feeling of being different, obviously better than others. It gave me a kind of superiority complex.

I was happy to be someone exceptional, thanks to my father. 

My mom never spoke about God or anything like that. 

I remember us walking together along the road, returning to our cottage after shopping in a nearby town. 

We walk hand in hand singing Czech songs. She is young, very pretty and joyful. I am proud of my mom. She is 

beautiful. 

We would often sit on the floor over a book of paintings by Hieronymus Bosch or Leonardo da Vinci or Sandro Botticelli. Botticelli was my mother’s favorite. I preferred Bosch.

We would look at details and speak about the pictures. That was wonderful

I was a Pioneer, a member of the Communist youth organization. I liked being a Pioneer, though I knew 

there was something odd about being one. 

I never had a uniform because my mom would never buy me a light blue pioneer shirt and a dark blue skirt with a belt. 

Not because she disapproved of my being a Pioneer, but because we had no money. She could only give me twelve crowns for a red scarf made of some kind of 

artificial fabric. 

My grandmother, great-grandmother and great- grandfather were Christian, and the whole family on my mother’s side was very patriotic. My grandmother often said to me—maybe about once a week: "I am a patriot, Katja. I can’t help myself: I love this country, I love Czechoslovakia. It is my country."

So I was proud to be Czech. It seemed to me very good to be a member of the Czech nation.

My dad would tell me stories about Jesus. 

I don’t know if I believed in him or not. That’s still a problem for me today. But I loved him as a hero: as a person, a human being. He definitely is one of my many idols. 

My dad also told me that there was no reason to be proud of being Czech. Czechs were cowards. What had they done to stop the Germans? What had they done to stop the Communists?

So I stopped being proud of being Czech and started to be proud of being partly Czech and partly Jewish. 

I was lying in my bed, reading a book. It was dark outside and my sister was already asleep. She was six.

We were in our little wooden cottage. Mice were searching for something to eat in the kitchen; I could hear them.

It started to rain.

My mom drew aside the drapery at the entry to our room.

“It’s raining” she said.

I didn’t raise my eyes from the book. “Yes,” I nodded.

She came inside and closed our window. She turned around and looked at my sister. Then she sat down on my bed.

“Katja…”she said in a very low voice.

“Yes?”

“You’re a big girl.” She said.

I knew she was going to tell me something very unpleasant. I couldn’t force myself to look at her. I could feel tears.

“Something went wrong.” She continued.

I knew. Something had been going very very wrong.

“Your dad is moving away. He’s not going to live with us anymore.”

I said nothing. Just watched the letters on an open page. They made no sense.

“Do you understand what it means?” my mom asked.

“Yes.” I answered.

She stood up and started for the door. Suddenly she stopped and hesitated for a while, biting the nail of her forefinger.

“I have to ask you something.” she said.

“Yes?”

“I know you love your dad. If you want to stay with your dad I won’t object. You are big. It is up to you to decide whom you want to live with. “ her voice broke down. “You don’t have to answer now. Think it over.”

She turned to the door.

“I don’t have to think anything over!” I cried out and sat up on the bed. “I want to stay with you!”

And I burst out crying.

It was still raining outside.

My parents divorced when I was twelve and my sister was six. I stayed with my mom, grandma and sister 

We had a female dog, Zuzka. My father left with our male cat, Macek.

“Dad is coming! Dad is coming!” Majda is running to the door. She opens it and hangs herself around his neck. He goes to the kitchen where my mom is preparing a table for a Christmas Eve dinner. I am in my room, packing gifts. The flat is filled with a holiday atmosphere. You can smell it in the air. Christmas carols, fried carp and a decorated spruce in the living room.

I go to the kitchen. My mom and dad are talking.

“Hi dad.” I say and kiss his cheek.

“ Katja,” says my mom, “Throw out the garbage, please, the basket is overflowing.”

I don’t feel like going out just now. I want to talk to my dad.

“I will do it later.” I say.

“Please, do it now.” She insists.

“I do not want to do it right now!” I shake my head. “I will….”

I didn’t have a chance to finish the sentence. He slapped me in the face. My dad slapped me. For the first time in my life. On a Christmas Eve!

“When your mother asks you to do something do it and don’t talk back!” he snaps at me.

I am back in my room, sitting on my bed.

“Stupid, stupid, stupid!” I crush the words between my teeth. “Stupid father!”

Then Charta 77 came along and completely changed our situation: my father became a dissident. I can't tell you how proud I was!

Yet from then until 1989 I lived in constant fear and stress. 

It had been taken for granted that I would study. But children of dissidents were not admitted to secondary schools. 

I had an advantage, though. I lived in quite a normal family. My mother was an English teacher, and had no contact with dissidents-- if you don’t count my father, who came every Sunday to take my sister and me out. 

My grandmother repeated to me almost every day that I had to struggle to be one of the best at school. I had to show them that I deserved an official education. And I had to make compromises. Though of course there were certain limits to collaboration. 

I decided that it would be best if I did only what they ordered, but not any more. Maybe I did more than was necessary, though. And I was stupid enough to yearn for their official education and diploma. 

In fact only the diploma was important to me, not the education. 

Soon after signing Charta 77 my dad started to study Hebrew and stopped eating pork.

And because my dad likes to talk about what he’s thinking about, he would spend hours and hours explaining to me the Bible or the Talmud or Jewish history. 

Unfortunately I don’t remember much from these lectures. 

He started going to synagogue every Saturday, and I often went with him. 

At that time he had a new family and I had a brand new brother. I felt at home in the synagogue and I liked going 

there. 

Once when we were walking from the Old-New Synagogue along the Paris Street, my dad told me that it is bad to believe in Jesus. Jesus is an idol. 

"It’s bad to believe in idols," he said.

But I was in grammar school then and had more important things to think about. 

There were so many things in front of me. I felt as if I were walking through a huge castle with hundreds of rooms. 

Each room was full of new things. One was stocked with books. Another was full of music. In another there were films and pictures. And at the end of each room there was another door leading into unknown territory. It was fantastic.

My family stopped being the only influence: I began choosing my own idols. 

I fell in love with the English language. This gave me a chance to see the world outside our covered pot. I had pen pals in America, and they kept feeding me books and records I would never get here. 

Soon I had a bunch of idols – writers, actors, singers. There were so many that I can't name them all. But the very first American I admired when I was still small was Huckleberry Finn.

At school we were getting an atheist education. 

We were told that the material world came first, not thought. Thought is function of matter. 

That was logical, so why not believe it? 

You have to believe in something. Life makes no sense if you have no faith.

I believed in humanity. I believed that man is good. And I still believe that today.

My father was having serious problems with the secret police. They were trying to force him out of the country.

I am sitting in an armchair, my knees touching my chin a cigarette in one hand and a cup of coffee in the other. There are about six or seven people gathered around a small wooden table. The room is full of smoke. I am hidden in the fog, biting my nails. Tension fills my stomach as I listen to the adults talk.

Elias my three years old brother is standing at the door, leaning against a cold white wall.

“What are you doing here, Elias? Go to your room.” Says his mother.

My and his dad rolls another cigarette, lights it and looks at his son.

“There is too much smoke in here, Elias.”

Elias makes a step to the door, hesitates for a while and when he sees nobody gives him any attention anymore he sits down on the floor and sucks his finger. He has just returned from the hospital. He’s got asthma.

 Adults speak about secret police and emigration. There is a bug hidden somewhere in the room. Nobody knows where but hey are all well aware of it. Instead of saying names of people and places out loud they write them on a piece of paper. My dad reads the message and burns the paper down in an ashtray.

A blond lady with glasses talks about how the police beat her up a week ago. They attacked her right in front of her house. Her husband was told to leave the country. “Otherwise” says the police “Something unpleasant could happen to your children. An accident, you know.” “So we are leaving.” says the lady and everybody is silent.

Elias coughs. Marcela, his mother, stops a cigarette and leads him out of he room.

“And what about you, Karol?” someone asks. “Are you going to leave?”

Dad shakes his head. “I will stay as long as possible.” He nods in my direction. “Katja is big enough but my second daughter Majda is too small to be without a father. I will wait until they both grow up.”

My stomach aches. Have I drunk too much coffee?

But they didn’t give him a chance to wait.

“Would you like an ice-cream?” my dad asks. We have just climbed the stairs and now we are sitting in a garden restaurant. We have a fantastic view of Prague. She is beautiful with all her towers and steeples glittering in the spring sun. The waiter brings a glass bowl of chocolate ice-cream for me and a cup of coffee for my dad.

“Did I tell you I was going to sing and play the guitar at a school performance?” I asked.

He shook his head. He looks tired, I thought. He always looks tired these days.

“Are you interested?” I want to know.

“Yes,” he rubs his eyes. “Absolutely. What will you sing?”

He is not interested at all, I know. But I go on talking.

“Katja…”he suddenly interrupts me in the middle of a sentence. “I have to tell you something.”

I grew silent.

Something very important and serious will follow. I can tell by the expression on my dad’s face.

“You are a big girl now.”

I nod hesitantly.

“I have big problems here.”

I loaded a piece of ice-cream on a tea-spoon and balanced it to my mouth.

“I know, Majda is still very small but you are almost grown up and I hope you understand what’s going on.”

I swallowed the chocolate mass and nodded once again.

“I have to leave.”

“Prague?”

“No. Czechoslovakia.”

“Where are you going?”

“Germany.”

I put the spoon on the table and pushed the ice-cream away. I had no more taste for chocolate.

Finally he left. He moved to Germany, where he began studying Judaism. 

After he had to leave I went to the Old Jewish Cemetery, to the grave of Rabbi Loew. It was believed, and still is, 

that if you put a message on the grave, your wish would come true. I hurriedly wrote two sentences: "Rabbi Loew,

please let the Communist regime end. And let my father come back home." I rolled up the paper and put it into a 

crack between two stones. 

I wanted to study English at the Faculty of Philosophy. I tried to get in three times. They finally told me I would never be admitted. They gave me a choice: either I could study economics or become a teacher of handicapped children. 

I chose the latter, and spent four terrible years at the worst school I can think of. 

My dad was very angry. 

Whenever I left Czechoslovakia to visit my dad, my grandmother kissed me, held my hand in hers and insisted: "Katja, you must promise that you will come back! You mustn’t stay abroad. It would kill your mother." 

I nodded. 

But she wanted me to promise. So I did.

My dad lived in Heidelberg. One day we were sitting in a café discussing my future life and the Communist regime. 

"There's no point any more in fighting Communism," I told my dad. "I’ve decided to live a normal life and have 

no problems."

My dad looked at me in surprise. 

"Communism will go on forever," I continued. "All the struggles of you dissidents were in vain. You were naďve. 

I have to learn to live under Communism."

"When you think this way you lose all hope!" my dad burst out angrily.

"There is still hope," I disagreed "But one has to be more modest."

"So what do you hope for?"

"I hope to find a job I will like. I hope to find a husband I will love. And I hope to have healthy children.“

"Nothing more?"

"I think that’s enough."

It was very hot when we were going home, and my dad was sweating and breathing heavily. He stopped to wipe his forehead. "You must study," he suddenly said.

"Don’t tell me: tell them," I answered.

"That’s not what I mean. You can never get a real education in Czechoslovakia," he said. "You should study here. In the West."

I gazed at him and didn’t know what to say. I could hear my grandma’s voice: "It would kill your mother. But it was tempting. 

"I can’t speak German," I objected.

"You don’t have to stay here. You can study in Britain or in the USA."

Oxford. Cambridge. Harvard. Berkley. Universities I had only dreamed of! 

("Promise that you will come back!")

Only now could I feel how terrible it was to be separated from the rest of the world by the Iron Curtain.

Shall I leave my mom there?

Shall I stay with my dad here? 

My father sent me on a trip to West Berlin, and I met my friend Klara there. She had been living in Germany for eight years.

"I’m grateful to my parents for bringing me here," she said. "I see so many opportunities for my future. And I’m 

free to choose my way of life." 

Then she took me to see her friends, who were all Czech. I spent three days in a flat with them drinking vodka and beer. 

"I hate Germans," said Klara.

"How can you live here?" I wanted to know.

"I have only Czech friends," she replied.

In the evening when we were all drunk, a girl asked me: "Do you think that we have a responsibility to our mother 

country?"

"Why should you be responsible? You left. Your life is somewhere else." I said with a heavy tongue.

"So you think that we are cowards?" she shouted at me. "You think we have no fatherland at all?"

I was too drunk to be able to answer.

I returned to Heidelberg and told my father I didn’t want to stay abroad.

On the evening before I was to leave for Prague, my dad drank too much wine. We didn’t go to sleep. Dad talked and talked. When it was almost morning he said, "You 

don’t like life."

"I do like life!" I objected vehemently.

"No, you don’t," he insisted. "If you did, you would appreciate it. You would be grateful for it."

"I am grateful. I am very happy that I’m alive."

"If you were, you would give thanks for your life." 

"Why should I? I’m alive, I’m happy to be alive. That’s how I give thanks."

"You should thank the one who gave you your life: the one who created everything."

"If he exists, then he surely knows that I’m grateful and that I love life."

"That’s not enough." And he kept on speaking on and on. 

It was dawn. There were reddish clouds appearing on the dark background. I watched the picture through the window. Suddenly a huge red finger appeared in the sky. My eyes opened wide, and pointed at the window. "Look! There is a big finger in the sky!"

My dad glanced out the window, and then at me. He start to laugh „I talk so much that I make you hallucinate! Let’s 

 get some sleep before you have to leave."

I loved my dad, and wanted to be as close to him as possible. If it wasn’t possible to be physically close, I 

wanted to be close to his mind, to fulfill the hopes he had for me, to be a daughter he could be proud of.

I started to learn Hebrew, read the Old Testament, and swallowed books by Buber and Maimonides.

I bombarded my father with letters asking for explanations about religious matters. 

I remember one remark I wrote him: "Now I can understand Abraham and his will to kill Isaac when God ordered it."

That seems to me unbelievable today, now that I have children. But I was doing my best to understand my father. 

I had to settle my matters with Jesus. 

One night I had a dream in which I had to make a final decision. It seemed to me that it was a point of no return. 

Either I would accept Jesus and his help, or I would carry the burden of my sins alone. 

In the dream I told someone whom I couldn’t see: "I have to abandon Jesus. I promise not to plead for his grace 

anymore. I don’t want him to die for my sins." 

Then I saw a white rose disappearing in a fog. I woke up and sat on the bed. 

I was afraid of what I had done. 

In the beginning of 1989 people in Prague started to gather and demonstrate against the Communist regime. 

They were excited. They talked about demonstrations. They talked about policemen with clubs and water cannons. 

They talked about police dogs.

Police dogs. 

I was so frightened of the dogs that I could not make myself go to a demonstration. 

And I felt ashamed. 

At the time I was twenty-four and lived with my boyfriend in my own small flat. 

Not much has changed since then. I still live in the same flat with the same man. Though there are three more people with us: our children.

Friends would come to see me and they would ask : "Are you going to the demonstration tomorrow?" 

And I had to say "No, I’m not. I’m afraid."

Then a friend would nod. "Yes, of course I understand. They’d throw you out of the University."

I didn’t give a damn about the University. Of course I wanted to finish and get the diploma my mother and grandmother yearned for. 

But I didn’t want to pay such a high price for it. I wanted to be someone who fights for human rights and freedom. 

But I was very scared.

The first demonstration I went to was on the seventeenth of November: the revolution began the next day. 

For the first time I was glad that I was a student. 

And my dream came true. I was a revolutionary, and the revolution was velvet.

I remember, though, how shocked and terrified we were in December when we saw what was happening in Romania. 

We students were sitting in a very small room on the floor, embracing our knees to make space for others with our eyes stabbing the screen and shivers going down our spines. 

We couldn’t understand it. Nothing had happened to us in Czechoslovakia. Everything had gone so well that it was 

hard to believe. But people in Romania were dying. Kids 

were being killed. We saw pictures of corpses. How was it possible? How come we had got our freedom so easily and 

they were suffering? 

Then suddenly we were living in an open world. Everything had changed completely, but the change was so natural that we often didn’t notice that something was changing. 

Matter had stopped coming first. We all started to be interested in faith, in religion. Esoteric literature, shamanism, Indians, Buddhism, Catholicism, Mormons, Islam, Judaism, aborigines, Inuits, Celts, pagan Slavic gods, ecology, magic, astrology, numerology, Chinese, Japanese….. We wanted to know everything. 

Now that we were free we could choose which path to follow. One day we were Buddhists, and the next day we were celebrating some pagan festival. We were full of good will. We were overflowing with hope and enthusiasm. 

But I was confused. 

What should I chose? What should I believe in?

Who am I? 

Why am I here?

There were no answers to my questions.

My dad and my two little brothers went to Israel. My father had to finish his studies there to become a rabbi. The Czech Jewish Community needed a rabbi, and there was nobody else able to do the job. 

So he was in Israel when the Gulf War started.

At the same time I had to undergo an operation on my vocal chords. When I woke up from the anesthesia everything was white and foggy. The professor who had done the operation was sitting on my bed. His hair was gray and he had a beard. His name was Kasparek: that means "Joker" in Czech. When he saw that I was conscious, he leaned over me and said in a low voice, "You can never be a teacher again." 

I wanted to ask him what had happened, but he put a finger to his lips and said that I was not allowed to speak for at least two weeks. And he left me there, confused and silent.

The next day I was released. I went home and sat down in front of the TV to watch CNN broadcasting the war.

I spent several days in bed, my eyes stabbing the screen, tense, silent, scared and dumb. I was afraid that nothing would stop the Iraqi missiles, and that they would reach their destinations. 

There was something disgusting too about watching the war live. At times I felt as if I were watching a perfect war 

movie. I can still remember how beautiful was the picture of missiles over Baghdad. But people were dying. 

I went to the hospital for a check-up. Because I couldn’t speak, I showed the nurse a paper with my doctor’s name on it. Her eyes widened: "Didn’t you know that Professor Kasparek died a week ago?"

No. I didn’t know that. Probably I had been his last operation.

The new doctor told me that something had gone wrong. The Joker. He had ruined the operation.

I assumed that it had been God’s will. 

What else could I do?

My new doctor told me that I was allowed to talk now.

I tried. But no sound came out of my throat.

The doctor was perplexed. What had happened? 

Another month went by, but I still couldn’t make a sound.

I studied medical books, but there was nothing that matched my case. I found only a short comment saying that a loss of ability to form sounds is usually caused by hysteria.

Me hysterical?! No way.

I was sent to another doctor. She told me that even though the operation had been unsuccessful, the damage to my 

vocal chords was not serious enough to deprive me of speech. 

"You’re a little bit nervous," she said. "Your problem is in your mind."

My God: I AM hysterical!

The Gulf War ended at last, and I slowly learned how to make sounds again. My voice was weak and uncertain. 

But it was a voice.

My dad came back. 

I got married.

My dad became a Rabbi. 

My dad's induction as a rabbi was taking place in the Jerusalem Synagogue in Prague. I arrived half an hour early. I hadn’t been to a synagogue for more than ten years, so I was a bit nervous as I watched people entering the decorated entry. Only a few of the faces were familiar. 

Then I saw my dad walking down the street. He was dressed in a white shirt and a dark suit. 

I ran up to him.

But he gestured for me to stay away. 

"You can't kiss me in public," he said. 

I raised my eyebrows in surprise. "Why can’t I?" I didn’t understand. "You’re my father!"

"Sure," he smiled. "But you’re a married woman, and I’m not allowed to touch any adult woman."

I nodded. What could I do? 

He disappeared into the synagogue, and I followed. 

I took my bag from my shoulder to let the guard search it. 

"No need to search her: she’s Rabbi’ s daughter," someone shouted, and I was let in.

The synagogue was full. 

I stayed at the back near the door. The people seemed to me different from people in the street. 

They were too pale. Their noses were sharp. And there was something strange about the way they talked. 

My father seemed to be more their relative than my parent. I had the feeling that he wasn’t my dad any more. I couldn’t even touch him! 

Jews. Jews. Jews. They were all around me, and I felt alone among them. I wasn’t one of them. And I didn’t want to be. 

The induction started. My father was introduced to the community and made a speech. Soon the celebration was over. He was a rabbi.

People gathered around him. Everybody wanted to congratulate him. I was the last in a long line. "How am I to wish him all the best without kissing him?" I thought. It was my turn. I approached him and said, "Congratulations."

My dad took a few steps forward, hugged me, and kissed my cheek. The tension that had filled me was gone. He was still my daddy.

My first son was born. 

And with the birth of my child, all my questions vanished. I had better things to think about. Suddenly I realized that 

I would never find the meaning of life. I would never know what comes after death, not until I died. 

Who am I? 

I am a mother, and that is the most important task for me in this world. 

For a long time I thought that being a mother was enough. 

Then my children grew up a little, and I had time for my own things. I started to see friends again. And one day I noticed that the question "Who am I?" no longer bothered me. 

I know that I am a Czech with a Jewish grandfather. But I don’t find that too important. There are other things that 

seem more important to me than nationality or faith. 

I’ve stopped searching for my identity. 

I’ve stopped asking questions that can’t be answered. 

It is enough for me to know that I am human. My task in this world is to act and feel as a human being. 

I am Katerina. That is my identity

 Katerina Sidonova 2001

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